Looking at this blog my last post was March 21, 2011. I have picked up and put down this project several times. I have reformatted, deleted a whole series of posts that I felt were no longer representative of who I am and changed focus and format. Yet, for some reason I have not gotten hooked on this whole blogging thing.
There is an overabundance of people who are in constant need to profess their expertise in blog format. They can shout at the top of their lungs why their opinion is the best, their diet will save your life, their god will lead you to salvation and their money tips will make you rich. They seem to be able to post daily, or more, with an ease that I have yet to find.
Then there are bloggers like my wife (who keeps a wonderful blog by the way) that keep a chronicle of their experience. If you like it and want take anything away from it, that is up to you. Her recipes are on her page with her art and her wonderful attitude. The pleasure she derives is from the sharing of ideas and experience. You decide if you take it or leave, she forces nothing on you. She posts when inspiration hits and puts it away until it is needed again. I like that.
I guess my question is "what is the purpose of this blog called livin' the dream?" The title started off as a sarcastic nod to the spirit and resolve of the military person. It is the phrase muttered when things are bad, they can only get worse, but you know you are going to drive forward anyway. My view of the phrase changed with my marriage and the formation of my life as I know it, I am living the dream in the best sense. But the though stuff hasn't gone away, if anything the problems are bigger. Is it possible that both meanings are allowed to apply to this title?
I need topics. I am interested in the definitions of what it means to be a man, especially at this time in history when it is unfashionable to be one. I come to you as a man of good report and well recommended. Just recently being able to go through the ritual and initiation that is so vital to the male psyche. I would like to share this experience and engage this discussion. Is this the correct format? Should I bother when others are able to do it better, or at least have a whole staff to do it more often?
I want to explore what it means to be a person of moderate views with a bent toward progressive action. I deplore bullies and those that can shape the world to their reality simply because they can yell louder.
There are few areas where I would call myself and expert. I have learned a thing or two in 31 years of life, maybe some of that will help.
Why have I not written in a year? Maybe it is because I no longer have the vigor of my youth where I would fight the bullies by being a bully to them. I no longer have the energy to yell loudly about quiet causes. Many (but by no means all) of my rough edges have been smoothed over. I have lost my voice to yell. Can I draw people in if I speak quietly?
I have changed career path recently as well. I am attempting to become a communicator by trade. As a message man I don't want the spot light on myself. I want to focus on those people that can tell the story better than I can. Then what do I do with a blog since they are so often an outlet for narcissism?
What does this mean for the future of this little web-log? I'm not sure. Just that I want to give it another shot.
